Some Honesty and Sad News

Throughout my blogging life, I've tried my best to limit what I share about my personal life outside of training. I use nicknames for my friends and try not to give a lot of details about people that I love and my "non Frayed Laces" life. But the reality is that each and every time I write a post or send a tweet, I invite you into my personal life. I've become very close with some of you. Some of you I've met in person; some of you I may never meet in person. Some of you have been reading me since I started blogging over four years ago; some of you are brand new to Frayed Laces. Regardless of how well or how long you've known me, you're still very much a part of my life. And the bottom line is that it it's my duty, both as a friend and a blogger, to try to be honest with you as much as I can. 

So it's with a heavy and sad heart that I have to let you know that after almost 2 years as a couple, Dr C. and I are no longer together. Out of respect for him and our relationship, I'm not going to give any details other than to say that it was I who made the ultimate decision but we came towards that decision together. Whenever I have major life decisions to make, I don't take them lightly. I have agonized over this. The month after returning to Hawaii I had to take sleeping pills each and every night. My training suffered. My work suffered. I couldn't think of anything other than: Was I making the right decision? What does the future have in store?

I made the final decision just over a week ago. I'm now sleeping without pills. My training is improving. I can finally focus on work. My heart its still indescribably sad, but I know deep down I made the right decision. My life had been turned upside down and I don't know what the future has in store, but I know ultimately I'll be okay. Because if there's one thing I've learned on this crazy life journey of mine, it's then when I get knocked down I always get back up-- stronger than ever.