Friday: Day before the race
After a horrendous 10 hour red eye flight next to a screaming child that no amount of wine or sleeping pills could block out, I arrived in Atlanta. I was pretty upset that I didn't get any sleep on the flight, but tried to use my excitement about the race to forget about my lack of sleep. In the hour it took for our luggage to come, I busied myself with fueling up with an Asiago cheese bagel from the Atlanta Bread Company (yum), watching some baby-faced kid propose to his sorority-chick girl (vomit), and talking to another runner about the difference between running marathons versus ultras (I pretended I was a "real" ultra runner). My dad, bless his heart, drove 2 hours to the airport in monsoon conditions to pick me up, and then drove another 2 hours with me up to the race site. It was pouring the whole time. He could sense my nervousness, and assured me the rain was supposed to clear up in time for the race.
We got to our hotel, and I began to unpack. Since my Dad was going to crew for me, I wanted to show him how I would need his help. I even showed him how to properly lube my feet and put on my recovery socks in case I needed to change gear mid-race.
My Dad had never been able to witness the over-the-top prep and organization I do before races, so as I kept laying stuff out he just kept saying "man, a lot of organization goes into this, huh?" And warily eyed from a distance.
After I got unpacked, we decided to drive to try to find the starting area and scope out the trails. As we drove up the mountain my heart started racing. Water was pouring out of every crevice of the mountain. Rivers were at their peaks. My confidence was starting to drain.
After driving around for a bit, I realized I needed to check my email to find the exact starting point. As soon as I logged in, I saw the dreaded: "Lookout Mountain 100k important update" in my inbox. That was when I got the first email that stated the race may not go on. My Dad decided that would be a perfect moment for a photo.
Feeling completely lost, we headed back to the hotel to wait it out. After about an hour, we received another email stating that the race would go on, yet would be a 50 miler with an altered course. With mixed emotions, I headed to packet pickup and the pre-race meeting.
At the meeting, the room was filled with the nervous chatter of the runners. People politely introduced themselves, but you could tell everyone was concerned about the race.

After the race director explained the new course, she asked if there were any questions. Naturally, I was full of them.
After the meeting, we tried to map out the new course as much as possible. My biggest concern was figuring out where my Dad could catch up with me and where to put my drop bags. With the old course, we had 4 opportunities for drop bags. With the new course, only three. I scrambled to rearrange 5 hours of obsessive preparation in 5 minutes.
After the meeting, I headed back to the hotel. The lack of sleep and stress of the day caught up with me, and I passed out at 8pm.
Saturday: Pre-race
I woke up at 6 feeling rested and sprang into action. Coffee? Check. Oatmeal with soy protein and peanut butter? Check. Banana? Check. Feeling like a stuffed turkey, I started to get all lubed up and into my gear. I decided to wear my Brooks HVAC long sleeved top, Brooks capris, Brooks Infiniti vest, Brooks Infiniti jacket, Brooks gloves, Recovery Socks, Dirty Girl Gaiters, Brooks Cascadias trail shoe, a Bondi Band around my ears, and my Boston marathon running cap on top. Oh yeah, I was totally teched out:
When I got to the start, I realized I needed more warmth on my legs. Thankfully they had all the drop bags, so I grabbed my CWX tights out of a bag and wore them instead of my capris. I tried to get a photo with my Dad, but the person put his hand over the flash so you all you see is me and the ghoulish-like image of my father's head.
To help keep the runners warm, they had a fire going at the starting line. We all huddled around it trying to get close enough to get warm, but not so close as to catch our synthetic fibers on fire.
After a few minutes, they gave us a quick briefing and had us line up at the start.
Then, with very little fanfare, we were off! The expression on my face in the second picture is not a smile, but a look of sheer terror.
The Race
Everyone took off a lot faster than anticipated. I tried to keep towards what I thought was the back of the pack, had no concept of where I was position-wise once we got on the trail. I was rocking out to my music, and enjoying the gentle downhill slope. My feet were numb initially, so I focused on regaining the circulation in my toes while trying not to step on the rocks that were hidden below the leaves. In the first 5 minutes, I turned my ankle three times. Not a good way to start out a race. Eventually, I fell into a groove. I realized I was going out too fast, but decided I would slow down once the pack thinned out a bit. I found myself in the lead of a pack of four men from South Carolina, and they cracked me up for a few miles--those guys were having a heck of a time out on the trails! The trails were wet, as expected, but I was most annoyed with the hidden rocks. In Hawaii, you can see where all the rocks and roots are. On these trails, I felt like I was walking through a minefield. I knew with each step lay the chance of stepping on a rock hidden below the leaf litter.
I pulled into the first aid station at mile 7 feeling really, really good. I grabbed some pringles, twix, and skittles and downed 2 cups of water. Right as I was about to take off a volunteer said "you are doing great! You are the first woman!" I groaned and said "oh, no...why did you have to tell me that?" And immediately took off. Race on. I know that it's my first big ultra, and I know that I don't know the course, and I know that I don't have a chance at all of winning, but..... When it comes to potential competition, I'm worse than a grad student at the sample table at Costco. I just can't resist.
I took off from the aid station and winded through a particularly annoying section of the trail. I kept turning my ankles on hidden rocks, and my feet were beginning to hurt. I lost sight of the trail a few times, and since there were no other runners in sight I started to get agitated. After losing several minutes from getting off the trail, the boys from South Carolina caught up and pulled me into the next aid station at mile 14. Again, I got the whole "you're first female!" line, and bolted outta there after grabbing a few pringles, some water, and some skittles. As I rounded the corner back onto the trails, I slipped on a wooden bridge and landed squarely on my tailbone. MOTHER PLUCKER! I yelled out (well, I gave you the PG version) which echoed through the woods. That basically set the tone for the next leg of the course.
After recovering from my fall, I began a horrendous climb. My heart rate was already high from racing the past 14 miles, so I moved slow up the mountain. I kept expecting to get passed, but I still saw no other runners. If it weren't for the trail markers, I would have thought I was lost. Slowly, painfully, I continued the climb. When we got to a section of switchbacks, I saw a runner a few minutes behind me. Although it was too far for me to make out features, the stride looked female. I figured I was about 2 miles away from the aid station at mile 23--the first aid station where my Dad could see me. I wanted to hold onto my lead until I got to my Dad. I sucked up my pain and exhaustion, and bolted. Miraculously, I entered the aid station as the #1 female. My dad got some great shots of me running in.




I had someone refill my hydration pack as I ate my mashed potatoes from my drop bag. I also grabbed some ramen broth, some peanut M&Ms and skittles. I explained to my Dad that I would not hold on my lead. I knew deep down I was going to crash and burn later on. I had gone out too fast, and knew I couldn't maintain the pace.
As soon as I got back on the trails I felt miserable. My feet were starting to hurt from all the turned ankles, and every step of running hurt. My heart rate was up, and I was cranky. Then, I fell once---OOOF. I picked myself up and continued. Then, I fell again---OOOF. The second time hurt. I was cranky. I was tired. This isn't what I signed up for. I just wanted to have fun. I began to question my motives. Why was I racing? Didn't I plan to go out slowly and enjoy the course? Did I actually get to see the beauty of the past 23 miles? No, I was too focused on the go-go-go, run-run-run that I don't remember anything.
So, I made a decision. I took three Advil and pulled back on the pace. My job was to have fun, not to race. Eventually the woman behind me caught up. We chatted for a bit and ran together for a few miles. It was nice to have her company, especially when we had to cross a river that was practically up to my knees. Eventually, I let her go ahead, and returned to rocking out to my music. Since I was alone in the woods I started a karaoke session, and pulled into the 30 mile aid station with a grin on my face. My Dad was there to catch me running across the field into the station.
I lingered for a few minutes, making sure to stuff my face.
My crankiness and anger usually means I need extra calories (my friends call it being "hangry": so hungry you are angry for no good reason). I explained to everyone that I decided to no longer race, so I was just going to have fun. I put back in my headphones and ran back into the woods feeling a lot lighter and happier than 7 miles earlier.
The rest of the race is sort of a blur. I continued to be in good spirits, especially once the Advil kicked in. I proceeded to maintain my position, and passed a few men along the way. When I was up on the ridge around mile 39, the wind whipped up and it began raining. That was about the point when I was ready for the race to be over. Thankfully, I had my music to keep me motivated, and I would just start singing along when I needed a pick-me-up. One of the South Carolina men caught up to me 5 miles from the finish, and we decided to run along together.
When we were 2 miles from the finish, he asked me what my next race was. I said "Oh, well, I'm switching gears to triathlon training now. My body has been sending me signs it needs some rest from all this running". As soon as I said these words, my foot caught a rock. I proceeded to land on my left shoulder right in the mud. Somehow the momentum carried me, and I did a complete somersault and landed right back on my feet! We had a good laugh out of that one, and tried to sprint our way into the finish. We both finished strong, and I had a huge smile on my face.
The final results? 2nd place female, 27 overall. Time: 9:09:25.
A big Mahalo to all of you who cheered me on during the lead-up to this. I kept checking all your comments in the days and hours leading up to the race, and knowing I had so many people behind me was truly encouraging.
But the biggest thank-you I want to send out is to my family. Thank you for supporting this crazy habit of mine, even if you don't completely understand it. Thanks to my brothers for bragging about me to their friends. Thanks to my sister for reading my blog and keeping up with my shenanigans. Thanks to my Mom for wanting text message updates of my race progress, for not going "mom crazy" over my various injuries, and for understanding that I can balance this "hobby" with working on my doctorate (thanks also for bringing me the sippy cup of wine on the treadmill last night!). Thanks to my Auntie and Uncle for your constant encouragement, for all the food, and for letting me take over your house when I come to visit. But the biggest thanks I want to send is to my Dad. Thank you for not rolling your eyes, not even once, when I asked you to count the cheez-its. Thank you for trying to keep me sane in the day leading up to the race. Thank you for standing in the freezing rain, for zipping from one aid station to the next, and for not looking at me like I'm nuts when you wake up the next morning and see me with my legs propped up on the hotel chair that is perched atop my bed. It was really a treasure to have you there at my race. Thank you.

Now, some of you mentioned you wanted my Dad to do a little guest blogging about his views of the weekend. Without further ado, here is Frayed Laces' papa:
Dad’s impressions of first ultra
Watching my daughter prepare for and run a 50-mile ultra trail race on Lookout Mountain in December was quite an experience. As someone who had only run a 5K once in his life, I did not know what to expect. I was struck by the extreme amount of detailed preparation that goes into these events, both on the part of the participants and the organizers. When we arrived at the hotel the night before the race, my daughter counted calories and prepared baggies with different items for each of the drop locations. I was instructed to place 29 cheez-it crackers in each of 5 snack bags. As I was counting, I thought, maybe I should slip 40 into one bag to give her an extra shot of energy, but I resisted the urge. The pre-race mandatory meeting was when I first saw the runners and organizers. Lots of useful and encouraging information was given by the organizers. Among my favorite comments were the following.
“You WILL get hypothermia if you do not cover up. Do not wander off the trail and lie down, like one guy did last year, because we might not find you until we sweep the trail, which could be too late for you. The race conditions will be horrible tomorrow—30s, with rain/snow mix, and lots of water on the trail. You will have to run through about 100 m of shin-deep freezing water. Memories are made most from suffering, and there will be lots of memories from this race because it will be a real SUFFER-FEST.” Oh yeah, there was also the following inspiring comment: “This is an absolutely beautiful course with lots of great views. . . Keep your head down to avoid injuries because the trail is in such bad condition.”
The race day started as promised, miserable weather conditions, but at least no active rain, just freezing fog and high winds, especially at the place where we sat for 4 hours until we could first see the runners. Watching my daughter run into each of the aid stations was a reward to me. Of course I am proud that she competed and won second place, but most of all I am thrilled that she is pursuing her dream with a zest for life.